Erselan dan Tantrumnya

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This is a long reflection post of some recent events in our life, specifically, our Erselan's development.
You know, Erselan has always been the quiet child. Not talking much, most probably cause we, the parents aren't talkative either, or rather, he hasn't got anyone his age to socialize. Yet he has always expressed himself in a cheerful & mostly cheeky ways. He cried so little, very rarely on tantrums.
Overall, he was, and still a good child.

However, thing has changed a bit nowadays. We can't point to exactly when he changed, but we noticed it more & more now.

He has become more emotionally attached to us, and he expressed it well.

Dia dah pandai merajuk. Lagi-lagi dengan Abi dia. Dan kebanyakkan masa, aku perasan dia merajuk sebab Abi dia takde depan mata dia.

Dia tak marah Abi keluar rumah pergi kerja. In fact, I think he knows how hectic the work schedule is. Dia boleh faham kalau aku bagitau Abi dah pergi kerja. Abi kerja pagi, or Abi kerja malam ni. Or Abi busy tak dapat balik lagi.

Cuma lately aku perasan dia akan cepat terasa hati atau merajuk kalau Abi dia langsung tak jejak rumah for a period of time.

Dulu, masa nak pindah hospital baru, Muadz kena cari dulu rumah sewa. So sementara waktu tu, aku & Erselan duduk di rumah Ayah Mama. Proses cari rumah ambil masa dalam tiga hari. Jadi sepanjang tiga hari tu, Muadz akan gerak seawal Subuh dan balik rumah seawal 11 malam. Kebiasaannya Erselan tengah lena masa Muadz ada kat rumah. Jadi Erselan tak nampak Abi dia depan mata. Dan lepas tu Muadz balik Manjung untuk settlekan proses pindah barang pula. He slept there for a night, then proceeded with the moving the next day, slept at our new house for a night.
You see, Erselan has always been accustomed to our hectic working schedule, but I think the longest he went without seeing us or any one of us was two nights in a row.
So when this house searching & moving process was going on, he basically didn't meet Abi for quite a long time than usual.

When Muadz was at Manjung, I made a phone call to him, cause Erselan has been asking for Abi quite a few times that day. When we connected & Erselan heard Abi's voice thru the loudspeaker, he screamed & cried. Take note Erselan was in a good mood before the call. So I thought oh my, maybe he missed Abi so much voice call isn't enough. So we made an attempt of video call after I calmed him down.

When the video call connected, and Erselan saw Abi on the screen, he threw, like the biggest tantrum we had ever seen. He cried. He screamed. He wailed. He then took my phone away & threw it on the ground the hardest he could. Hati Ummi robek weh tengok anak macam tu. Terus tutup video call dan sambung pujuk dia. Nasib baik my family was around hence Ummi control macho & tak ikut nangis sekali sebab Ummi dia pun clingy sobs sobs. At that time, we were quite clueless why he threw such tantrum. Padahal Abi lah favourite dia. Pantang dengar Abi call. Pantang tengok gambar & video Abi.
So came the day when we finally met at the new house, Makteh yang pick up aku & Erselan kat rumah Ayah Mama. Dalam kereta Erselan dah mula merengek sebab yela, kereta sama jenis, tapi yang drive, orang lain & Abi is nowhere to be seen. Sampai-sampai rumah baru je, Erselan nampak Abi tapi dia mengelak. Abi dah ready nak peluk cium dah tapi dia merengek taknak. hm more like merengus marah. Last-last kitorang give up nak paksa dia peluk Abi dia. Lamaaaaa tu baru dia okay.

Masa ni aku dah macam oh dia merajuk kot. Yela, selamba je Abi datang & pergi tinggalkan dia. Lama pula tu. Aku syak perangai dia yang satu ni ikut perangai aku. Jenis tak boleh jauh dengan suami. Lepastu nak perhatian je. heh

So then come back to the latest incident, which is I think was last Saturday. Today is Wednesday. So that makes it 5 days ago?

Muadz was on PM shift that day, and he was on passive call too. So in a PM shift, you work from 3pm till 10pm and passive call means you need to be on standby for any ambulance call from 8am till 8am the next day. To make things interesting, Muadz has football game on the Saturday morning. So he went out around 750am. Then he came back home around 11am, with the news of ambulance call waiting. So Erselan & Abi met for few moments only. Muadz pun siap-siap cepat-cepat sebab perjalanan dari rumah ke hospital ambil masa dalam 20 minit.
Pung pang pung pang, by the time Muadz reached hospital again, it was time for his PM shift. So memang tak sempat nak balik rumah lepak sat ke apa. Fast forward to the end of his PM shift, Muadz told me that he has another ambulance call waiting so he wont be able to come back home yet.
Seperti biasa, aku pun tidurkan lah Erselan dulu. Yela, dah pukul berapa masa tu. Anak aku ni kalau tak dipaksa tidur, habis dia tahan mata.
He came back home around 3am. Then around 4am he received another call. So went back to hospital. Pung pang pung pang, dalam pukul 7 pagi juga dia balik rumah. Dia tidur sat. Tak lama pun. Sebab dia AM shift haritu. Meaning 8am till 3pm. Jadi dalam 830 pagi macam tu dia gerak pergi kerja balik. Nasib baik colleagues memahami dia lewat sikit.
Dan seperti biasa, Muadz jenis tak suka passover benda tak settle kalau dia boleh settle. So petang tu instead of being punctual, he came back home around 5pm.

Sampai-sampai je Muadz kat rumah, Erselan terus mengamuk. Dia tutup pintu rumah. Tak bagi Abi dia masuk. Abi dia masuk dia marah-marah. Abi dia nak peluk dia meraung-raung. Habis tantrum dia petang tu. Dah kesian pula aku tengok Muadz. Dengan penatnya, dengan rasa sedih anak emo macam tu. Last-last aku suruh je dia siap-siap & pergi rehat. Biar aku pujuk Erselan. Jenuh gak nak pujuk budak ni. Aku cakap macam-macam nak bagi dia faham kerja Abi dia memang macam tu. Sebab selalunya dia good boy je. Dia faham je Abi kena kerja. Cuma aku rasa dia tak dapat terima bangun, tidur, dan bangun balik pun Abi masih tak muncul depan mata. Dia dah pandai merajuk. Dah pandai tunjuk dia nak perhatian.

Aku rasa betullah tekaan aku tu. Dia nak manja je dengan Abi dia. Sebab esoknya Muadz PM shift, so dia bangun pagi tu dia keluar & nampak Abi dia kat meja kerja. Ya ampun sengih lebar. Terus menggedik dia. Sengih-sengih. Senyum malu-malu. Suka lah tu Abi depan mata. hmph

Tulaa, kadang anak depan mata ni, tak perasan pun dia dah makin besar, dah matang sikit, dah tau nak tunjuk perasaan yang selama ni dia tak tunjuk sangat pun. Bijak budak-budak sekarang. Kadang nak marah dia tantrum tu, marah gak, tapi sekarang aku cuba didik diri sendiri ambil pendekatan lembut. Duduk depan dia, pandang mata dia. Peluk dia. Usap-usap kepala. Tanya dia kenapa lahhhh dia mengamuk tak tentu pasal ni. Tapi tula, seorang Hani ni pun sejenis emosi juga. Jadi kalau aku rasa aku penat gila, tak larat nak layan perangai tantrum dia, aku biarkan je, lepastu aku pergi asingkan diri kat dalam bilik ke kat mana ke. Nanti dia akan datang pujuk minta perhatian. Sementara tunggu dia datang tu, aku tenangkan lah hati sambil fikir amende lah anak aku tu nak kali ni.

Paling terkesan sebab setiap kali aku muhasabah, mesti aku akan sampai ke konklusi yang anak aku ni bukan apa, dia cuma manja, nak perhatian, nak orang main dengan dia. Yela, dia sorang. Nak main dengan siapa lagi kalau bukan dengan Abi Ummi dia. Tapi tula, kalau main kejar-kejar memang lah Ummi tak larat. hahaha hmmm.

Kadang terfikir, kejap je dia dah nak masuk tiga tahun. Kang kalau asyik dimarah je, sedar-sedar dia dah masuk sekolah, masa tu nanti dia dah tak heran dah dengan aku. haa masa tu meraung lah Ummi nak perhatian dia pula. sobs

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This was posted on our private blog but now I decided to share this with the world.

السلام علايكم

EIDLAN MUHAMMAD ERSELAN BIN MUHAMMAD MUADZ

Friday ; 24 June 2016

Vacuum-assisted delivery, 1.30am at PUSRAWI Kota Damansara.
Discharged at 4.30pm.

Monday ; 27 June 2016

Referred to ED Hosp. Serdang from KK Batu 14 Puchong due to severe NNJ.

Admitted to NICU.
TSB on admission was 427. We were informed about the potential blood transfusion & my blood sample was taken as preparatory action.
Repeated TSB at 12am was 421 and thus no blood transfusion is necessary.
He was put under intensive phototherapy.

Tuesday ; 28 June 2016

Morning TSB was 286 so he was changed to single photo but 12pm TSB was 300, it rebounded, hence he was again put under intensive photo.

Friday ; 1 July 2016

After being put under single photo, specialist decided to switched off his photo on morning round.
TSB is to be repeated at 6pm to determine if rebound happen.
TSB at 6pm was done & it went down, slightly, and he was finally discharged from NICU at 8.30pm.
He was scheduled for further jaundice follow up at KK.

Wednesday ; 6 July 2016

First Eid for Erselan. yayy!

Monday ; 11 July 2016

Referred from KK to Paeds Clinic Hosp Serdang for prolonged jaundice.
Blood & urine sample were taken.
Erselan was well & healthy, despite being a lil bit yellow.

Wednesday ; 13 July 2016

I noticed he was hot at 6.15am but cant determined his body temperature because we didnt own a thermometer.
Did tepid sponging and his body seemed to cool down a bit. Then hubby decided to bathe him.
Decided to take him to Nadi Iman Clinic at 10.30am because his body was still a bit hot & he refused to nurse as usual.
Referred to ED as presumed sepsis & then admitted to NICU.
He was diagnosed as E.coli UTI due to the previously taken urine culture result taken at Paeds Clinic.
They started him on cefuroxime at 5pm, to complete for 7 days.

Monday ; 18 July 2016

Urine C&S taken on Friday (15 July) came out clean.
He completed day 5 antibiotic at 8pm.

Wednesday ; 20 July 2016

Completed antibiotic at 6pm.
Discharged at 8pm after hubby came back from home.

Sunday ; 24 July 2016

Erselan is one month old! :)
Aqiqah was done.

Tuesday ; 26 July 2016

Hubby shaved Erselan's head.
Finally Erselan is bald. hehe

Today, Saturday ; 16 September 2017

Erselan is 1 year 3 months old.
Alhamdulillah.

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Mula Semula?

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Sekian lama tak menulis kat sini. Dulu dah berniat nak kuburkan terus blog ni.
Tergerak hati nak menulis lepas naqibah bagi galakan untuk tulis input tarbiyah yang aku dapat kat blog instead of sekadar menulis dalam nota kat group liqa' kitorang kat facebook. hmm hmm. Mungkin akan cuba untuk buat macam tu. Cuba untuk gunakan logam yang ada pada diri untuk Islam. hmm.

Sementara waktu tu, sedikit update diri tuan empunya blog yang dah lama menyepi.

Ye. Dulu cik, sekarang puan.
I'm officially taken and I feel belong now. alhamdulillah

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Musyrif?

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Tiap kali pusing ke belakang, aku teringin nak tengok kau tiba-tiba ada, jaga aku dari belakang, tiap kali aku pulang seorang diri.

Tapi nak buat macam mana.

Kau jauh di sana, aku masih di sini.
Kau menunggu masa, aku tetap setia menanti.

_{pengaruh kawan³ kat facebook tengok warna tema perkahwinan}

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Demi Sebuah Keluarga Sakinah

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March Babies I

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alhamdulillah, 18 Mac 2012, Onie cukup 21 tahun.

Sempat lah kitorang menyempatkan diri pergi Slamlek nak sambut hari tua sahabat sorang ni. :p

Masa ni Opie dah bergegas balik, tak larat katanya. Yela, kelas dia penuh daripada pukul 8 pagi tadi kot.

Dan ini pertama kali makan kat kedai ni. We're lame. We know it. And we're okay! hewhew. Yela. Kedai mahal pula. Memang takde lah nak makan sesuka perut. Selalu bersuka perut kat Hasanah tu je. Dapat roti canai! omnomnom. hehe.
Tapi puas hati lah juga. Kenyang pun kenyang. Sedap pun sedap. Opie kata nanti nak cari suami yang mampu bawa dinner hari³ kat sini. haha.

Dan ini hadiah untuk birthday woman! hehe. ye. Atas idea gila Jajaun, aku & dia bagi nenas. Tapi serius nenas tu comel. Dan praktikal! Boleh masak! haha. Tapi comel. Ala³ Bob Si Span duduk bawah laut dalam nenas. Kawan dengan Patrick & Sandy. _{*insert some inside memories here*}
Onie dapat cermin juga! And lots of chocolates! Suka lah tu. hihi.

Sanah helwa ya ukhti. Semoga dengan pertambahan umur, bertambahlah iman, kekuatan, kejayaan, kekayaan, oh well, you know, everything that is good.
Aku tak reti lah berpuitis macam Jajaun. Tapi aku tau aku sayang kau. Kau dah serupa mak _{esp sebab kau paling tua} hikhik. Kidding mokcik.

Aku sebenarnya dah tahap mengantuk sungguh dah ni.
Sekarang dah mula study week. 25 Mac ni midsem. Pray for us, pwetty pwease.

Tapi, aku suka benda ni.


Serius lah! Sedih. And awesome! Jap, aku tak jumpa perkataan sesuai nak gambarkan rasa riang terharu hati aku sekarang. Semata³ sebab masih ada yang ingat kegemaran aku. :) Dan video ni, memang tepat tertusuk dalam kalbu. SUKA!!!


_{p/s : kau tak datang kelas siang tadi. aku dah nekad nak berdepan dengan kau. sekarang, aku kena cari semula kekuatan aku tadi. dia tiba³ hilang dibawa angin petang}
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For My Number One Lioness

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Hani sayang Mama ♥


I was a foolish little child
Crazy things I used to do
And all the pain I put you through
Mama now I'm here for you

For all the times I made you cry
The days I told you lies
Now it's time for you to rise
For all the things you sacrificed

Oooh
If I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone I swear that I would
I would make it up to you
Oooh
If I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone I swear that I would
I would make it up to you

Mom I'm all grown up now
I'ts a brand new day
I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

Mom I'm all grown up now
And it's not too late
I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

You know you are the number one for me
You know you are the number one for me
You know you are the number one for me
Oh oh
number one for me

Now I finally understand
That famous lie
About the day I'd face in time
Coz now I have a child of mine

Even though I was so bad
I've learnt so much from you
Now I'm trying to do it too
Love my kids the way you do

Oooh
If I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone I swear that I would
I would make it up to you
Oooh
If I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone I swear that I would
I would make it up to you

Mom I'm all grown up now
I'ts a brand new day
I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

Mom I'm all grown up now
And it's not too late
I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

You know you are the number one for me
You know you are the number one for me
You know you are the number one for me
Oh oh
number one for me

There is no one in this world
That can take your place
Oooh I'm sorry for ever taken you for granted

I will use every chance I get
To make you smile
Whenever I'm around you

Now I will to try to love you
Like you love me
Only God knows how much you mean to me

Oooh
If I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone I swear that I would
I would make it up to you
Oooh
If I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone I swear that I would
I would make it up to you

Mom I'm all grown up now
I'ts a brand new day
I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

Mom I'm all grown up now
And it's not too late
I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday

The number one for me
The number one for me
The number one for me
Oh oh
number one for me

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Sekadar Nombor?

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"Dua puluh satu haribulan dua dua ribu sebelas slash dua ribu duabelas"

Nombor indah bukan nombor keramat. Bukan juga nombor yang perlu diraikan. Cukup sekadar ia segar dalam ingatan kau dan aku. Pupuk apa jua yang berkaitan, biarkan semuanya mekar. Indah. Hingga tiba nombor keramat, insyaAllah nombor penuh memori ini kusimpan kemas dalam memori. Hingga muncul nombor keramat, aku harap nombor indah ini takkan kau lepas dari genggaman. Doaku setiap kali, moga hitungan nombor indah ini sekadar beberapa sahaja. Doaku setiap kali, moga hitungan nombor indah ini tidak akan pernah melebihi hitungan nombor keramat yang bakal tiba suatu hari nanti.


~~~~~ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ~~~~~

Aku akhiri post ni dengan keajaiban teknologi perubatan. hekhek. Credit to Comm Med's practical session.

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The Start of Semester Six

السلام علايكم
alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah.
Aku lepas semester 5. Sujud syukur. Aku mati-matian tekad nak check senarai ID yg gagal. Punya kurang keyakinan aku haritu. Tapi alhamdulillah. Lepas. Markah tak setinggi langit. Apatah lagi nak mencecah markah Jajaun _{*tahniah awak*} tapi aku cukup lega. Dan untuk semester 6, harapnya semangat tak luntur & usaha makin bertambah _{walaupun itu sangat jauh panggang daripada api} sebab topik³ semester 6 banyak gila details. Doakan kami! yosh. Oh ye, uni dah upgrade. Check results online.
yeyeye. Aku tau uni Msia macam tu tapi kena faham, ni pertama kali uni aku kat Mesir ni buat macam tu. So, kira ok lah kan. hehe

Sekarang, mari sambung cerita lain.

Mula kelas haritu, awal pagi, sebelum pergi kuliah jam 9 pagi, kecoh kat dunia maya. Rafiqah (sebaya aku) dah release gambar nikah dia. :O Kat twitter apa lagi, hangat. Tak pasal³ semua segar bugar. Aku pun ikut whoah sekali. Dan terus menjerit "Aaaaa! Ape neh?! When is my turn?!"
Kepada Ayah Mama, I'm sorry. Dah lumrah diri. hehe. *wink wink*
Tapi, pape pun, mabrouk Iqah. Semoga perkahwinan Iqah diberkati Allah & kekal bahagia sampai ke syurgaNya. :D

Next!
Haritu berbelanja di Gala2. hohoho. Tiba³ terasa bangga sebab tak pernah berbelanja sakan macam tu sekali. Tapi sakan apalah sangat. Beli dua pashmina & satu jubah. Boleh tahan lah murah harga. hehe. Excited sebab dapat lepas nak benda tu lama gila. Dan tak pernah³ spent duit sekali harung laju macam tu. hewhew. What to do, I dont find shopping exciting like the others. hewhew.

Next!
Semester 6 kali ni semangat beli buku yg berset³ bagai. 3 subjek. Tiga³ aku beli. Entah baca entah tidak. =..=' Tapi aku dah guna lah buku ni. Harap tak jadi macam buku semester lepas. Tengok sekali sekala. haish.

Next!
Apa lagi eh? Haritu aku rasa banyak cerita yang aku kepam sbb tekad taknak menulis sampai keputusan semester 5 keluar. ehm. Aku tak ingat lah. ehm. Apa ek? Oh, semester 6 dijangka habis sekitar akhir bulan 5. Kalau semuanya ok, insyaAllah sampai Msia sebelum puasa. TAPI TAK JANJI. I'll give you guys the final date later.

Next!
21 Februari 2012 dah makin dekat. :)

Next!
Itu je kot. Aku nak tidur. Kebelakangan ni, tidur nak awal je. Tak muda remaja betul. hehe. kbai. Aku dah lega dgn result. alhamdulillah. Dah inform mereka³ yg patut. And now, I need my beauty sleep. :)

Selamat malam, korang.

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Dhiah AJ's

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Selamat hari jadi!
Selamat hari jadi!
Selamat hari jadi, Dhiah!
Selamat hari jadi!

Hai adik tembam!
Lama tak jumpa budak kecoh sorang ni. Dah nak berapa tahun dah en.
Tau³ je dah cukup 17 tahun dah awak, dik. Dulu kemetot je. heh
I wish you all well. SPM dah habis en? Akak doakan yg terbaik lah. Dah usaha sungguh³ kan? Sekarang tawakal ok.
Rajin³ email akak, macam selalu. Walaupun akak sangat pemalas nak reply email.
Jangan rajin sms, sebab awak sms akak mahal. Akak nak reply pun mahal. Nanti kalau akak takde kredit, akak rasa bersalah tak reply sms awak. sobs

Anyway, nanti kalau ada rezeki, akak balik, kita cuba jumpa ok? hehe. Tau tau tau!
Jangan jumpa time akak kahwin je. ehhh. c(:

Love you. muachies!
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Baby Baby Baby Ohhhhhh

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Dear dearest Baby mucuk kesayangan Ayah Mama, KakNi & KakNa, tak lupa juga kesayangan TokMak, Nenek, TokIti, Paklang, Usu & Haziq CikNi...ehh? c(:
Kidding, awak, kidding. Sila jangan muncung³ nanti akak cium!

heh.
Selamat hari lahir, awak.
Tahun depan dah masuk tingkatan 1. Masuk sekolah menengah. New environment.
Ingat, jaga diri, belajar sungguh³, pilih kawan elok³.
Takmau nakal³. Jangan cantik³ sangat nanti akak jealous. HAHA
Aim for a straight A's for PMR. Walaupun jauh lagi. hihi.

Apa lagi? Akak kalau dapat peluang nak membebel kat awak, satu jam skype pun tak cukup, tahu?
Oh ye. Rindu akak tak? Rindu tak? Rindu? hee. Akak rindu awak.

Lagi? haa. Ingat pesan Ayah Mama KakNi KakNa selalu. Akak sayang awak. Please please please take care. I'm too far away to take care of you. Akak tak boleh nak jaga awak macam akak jaga KakNa dulu _{*kesat airmata*} so awak jangan nakal³ sangat tau.
Solat jangan tinggal! Tulang tu jaga. Bersukan tu elok³ jangan nak injured je. Homework buat sendiri. Tolong Mama buat kerja rumah. Jangan lupa buatkan Ayah air malam³. Lagi? err. Jangan hancurkan bilik akak. heh.

ok lah. Tu je. Akak-rindu-awak-sampai-rasa-nak-nangis-sebab-dah-lama-tak-peluk-cium-tumbuk-sepak-awak.

Happy birthday, again. :)
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From Birthday to Midsem to Birthday

السلام علايكم
alhamdulillah. Midsem dah lepas. fuhh fuhh fuhh. Ada satu kelegaan di situ. alhamdulillah dapat jawab semua 50 soalan. Tapi betul salah jawapan aku tu, hehe, belakang kira. Janji takde tinggal soalan. wee. Taktau apa nak expect. Sebab study macam tak cukup, kurang situ, kurang sini. Tapi teringin juga markah yang tinggi³. hukhuk. Harini cuti sehari. Esok mula kuliah semula. Kes enam. wuu wuu wuu. Lepas tu, bulan satu nanti, final. wuu wuu wuu. Tak sempat nak bernafas ni. heh. Anyway, as usual, do pray for us here. Doakan kitorang pulang ke tanah air bawa degree in medicine. insyaAllah. ngee

Dan, dua hari sebelum midsem semester lima, dua orang kawan baik aku sambut hari kelahiran!

Muadz Termizi ; Zaza Zahar

Finally, korang dua dah tua seiring dgn aku. muehehehe.
Selamat hari lahir, sahabat.
Sorry takde personal post as usual. But I did wish you on time kan? kan?
Terima kasih sebab selalu ada dgn Hani. You give me supports, lots and lots of them. Korang tak pernah lupa nak bagi nasihat so that I'll become a better person each day of my life. Terima kasih sangat³!

^{p/s : aku curi gambar dari tag photos korang sebab aku takde gambar latest / proper nak letak. harap maklum. ngeee}
Sayang korang! muachies.

And Budak, Ilymore. :)

Dan ouh, Mesir tak stabil sekarang. Macam³ hal dorang buat kat Kaherah & Iskandariah tu. Kat Mansoura ada juga. Tapi kat kawasan Muhafazah je. Kawasan gamaah selamat je lagi. Aku masih aman & damai kat sini. So Ayah, Mama, Hana & Myra yg dah mula tweet risaukan aku, jangan risau sangat³. I'm safe & sound here. I'll take good care of myself. My friends will take care of me. And we'll take care of each other. Macam biasa. So jangan risau³ sangat k. Kebanyakkan berita tu dekat Kaherah je.
Dan harapnya tak teruk macam dulu. Taknak balik Ops Piramid sebab exam tak habis lagi. :(

And Egypt, be safe. Uhibbu, Masr. :)
Dah kata belajar kat sini kan? Sedikit sebanyak mesti ada rasa sayang kat tempat ni. Bayangkan nanti dah habis belajar, mesti ada sikit rasa rindu. sobs sobs.

ok tu je nak membebel. Nak sambung movie. hehe. tata.
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Allah Knows

السلام علايكم
A friend dedicated this song to me.
:)
A song by Zain Bhikha. Made up my morning. Syukran, ukhti. Love you too.

When you feel all alone in this world
And there's nobody to count your tears
Just remember, no matter where you are
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you carrying a monster load
And you wonder how far you can go
With every step on that road that you take
Allah knows
Allah knows

No matter what, inside or out
There's one thing of which there's no doubt
Allah knows
Allah knows
And whatever lies in the heavens and the earth
Every star in this whole universe
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you find that special someone
Feel your whole life has barely begun
You can walk on the moon, shout it to everyone
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you gaze with love in your eyes
Catch a glimpse of paradise
And you see your child take the first breath of life
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you lose someone close to your heart
See your whole world fall apart
And you try to go on but it seems so hard
Allah knows
Allah knows

You see we all have a path to choose
Through the valleys and hills we go
With the ups and the downs, never fret never frown
Allah knows
Allah knows

Every grain of sand,
In every desert land, He knows.
Every shade of palm,
Every closed hand, He knows.
Every sparkling tear,
On every eyelash, He knows.
Every thought I have,
And every word I share, He knows.
Allah knows

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Ahli Bait Dah Cukup

السلام علايكم
alhamdulillah.
Rumah dah penuh balik. yeay!
Petang tadi Jajaun sampai. Campur Hajar yang sampai akhir September haritu, cukuplah ahli bait aku. :)
Suka!

Dan dorang tak balik tangan kosong eh. hihi. Memandangkan ada rasa simpati dekat housemate dorang ni yang raya di perantauan & sambut hari lahir sorang³, dorang ada bawa sesuatu dari Malaysia

*bear hug*

Atas ni daripada Hajar. :)

Bawah ni pula daripada Jajaun (:

Tunggu Onie bagi hadiah dia pula. haha. Demanding gila.
Bila ntah dia nak bagi. weeee. c(:

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Day 9: A favorite picture of your best friend

السلام علايكم
I dont know whether best friend is the appropriate term or not. Sebab aku jarang label kawan³ ni. Yang aku tau, aku kenal, aku berkawan, tau³ aku dah sayang dorang. Dan aku pun tak pasti rasa tu satu hala atau dua hala. =.=' So yeah.

Behold...

Mereka yang aku simpan erat dalam hati. ♥

^{p/s : aku susun secara rawak}

Dan ada sorang dua yang aku tak letak. Sebab aku tak jumpa gambar dorang!! Grr. Sebab tu zaman sekolah menengah en. Gambar semua banyak dalam hard disk kat rumah Malaysia. haish. But nevertheless, Oshin & Izzani, korang masih dalam hati aku. :)

Dan ye, aku ada masalah nk buang orang dari hati. =.='
Dan kejap. Dia suruh letak gambar je kan? Tak suruh membebel kan? >.<

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Day 6: A picture of something that makes you happy

السلام علايكم
ehm.
Ini susah. Lots of things make me happy. Nak pilih yang mana ye? ehm.
I think I'll go with this.

Aku boleh senyum lebar tak ingat dunia keliling setiap kali tengok screenshot ni.
:)

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Day 4: Your Parents

السلام علايكم
They're my favourite!
muehehehehe.

Nak cerita pasal apa eh? ehm. I dont really like to talk bout them in blog. Kalau membebel pasal dorang pun, its about nothing in particular. Random je. Because I'd like to keep them for myself. gahahaha. Tamak tamak tamak.

But here we go. Sikit pun jadi en.

CikJoi & Oteh. A couple. A perfect one. With an almost perfect marriage and an almost perfect daughters. hikhik.

Dua³ cinta pertama, kan?
Masih kekal romantis, lagi³ ayah. wuu wuu wuu. I tell you, Ayah is the most romantic guy I ever met! And Mama is the luckiest woman on Earth to be married to such a guy like Ayah. And of course, Ayah is completely perfect with Mama by his side.

They are what I called the perfect couple which completes each other. Sangat³.
Ask anyone. Mesti cakap benda yang sama. You can see it everyday. Every second. And trust me, up till this day, you can still feel the love is in the air.

weewooot.

Thumbs up to my parents!
alhamdulillah, I am bless with their presence in my life. Surely, I rarely tell them how much I love them but I know, they know I love them too much. Sampai dah taktau tahap mana dah.

Tapi ye, sangat cemburu ye dengan dorang. Lagi³ kalau tengok dorang bercinta. grr.
Tengok lah nanti kalau Hani dah kahwin. Tengok lah! grr.

ehm. Apa lagi eh? Tu je kot. Cukup³ lah ni. Kang kembang pula Ayah & Mama yang duk baca entri ni. hihi.

Till then, lovelies.
Wassalam 안녕

He is My Bestfriend Forever

السلام علايكم
Korang ada kawan baik? heh. Soalan jenis apa daa. Mesti ada kan? Aku rasa semua orang pun ada kawan baik. Paling kurang, sorang.
Dan aku, alhamdulillah, memang kaya dgn kawan baik. Lagi³ sejak di SBS. Dan kawan baik aku ada perempuan. Ada lelaki. Bukan sorang, bukan dua. Lebih. Alhamdulillah, dorang semua kawan baik yg tau nak membimbing. Dan aku masih tak berhenti diketemukan dgn kawan baik dekat sini. :)
Tapi kawan baik bagi tak perlu deklarasi macam couple³ tu. Cukup aku selesa dengan dia, baik dengan dia, rapat, aku dh boleh anggap dia kawan baik. Tapi takde lah nak heboh satu dunia 'hoiii dunia, harini sah ktorang jadi bestie'. Bagi aku cukuplah sekadar hati aku tau, dia kawan baik aku. Tak payah minta pengesahan 'weyh,kita bestie kan?' daripada dia pun takpe. Itu aku lah. Aku rasa ramai je macam aku ni. Tapi ada juga segelintir yg memang suka main declare³ ni. hikhik. But I have nothing against them. People differs kan? :)

Dan harini, aku nak cerita pasal kawan baik lelaki aku. Secara amnya, kawan baik aku adalah keluarga aku. Serius. Mak dorang pun jadi mak aku. Ayah dorang ayah aku. Adik dorang pun aku sapu. Abang? err. Jarang kawan baik aku ada abang, jadi tu macam lain sikit. Erti kata lain, aku nak cakap, kawan baik aku yg lelaki ni aku anggap dah macam abang. Tapi macam abang ni tak bermaksud aku anggap dia mahram aku tau. hukhuk. Takut ada salah faham. Dan secara natural, dorang lah yg menjadi tukang marah itu ini, tegur sana sini kalau agak³ aku ada buat silap. Bukan yg perempuan tak buat macam tu, buat, tapi yg ni daripada pandangan lelaki. Contoh? Tegur cara pakai aku ke. Macam tula. Mungkin bagi perempuan pakaian tu dah okay, tapi lelaki lain. Contoh terdekat, besties aku tak minat aku pakai selendang. Bawal lagi ok. ehm. Macam tula. Korang faham ke eh apa aku nak sampaikan?

haa. Sambung. Dan entri kali ni, aku nak cerita pasal sorang kawan baik aku. Yang paling istimewa. Dia ni antara kawan baik aku yg paling awal aku kenalkan dengan ayah mama. gagaga. Dan dia lah manusia yg buat aku langgar falsafah diri a bestfriend is to remain as bestfriend, no more no less. dayngg. Berhari³ juga lah aku kena get over hakikat hati aku dah lain dengan dia. I cant blame the hormones though. =.='

Dia, aku kawan macam biasa, sama macam kawan³ baik aku yg lain. Yg lelaki, maksud aku. Sayang aku kt dia, sama macam aku sayang yg lain. Cuma entah macam mana, satu hari, ada orang ketuk kepala aku dan tegur, mungkin apa yg aku rasa ni lebih daripada apa yg selalu aku rasa. hukhuk. Dan masa aku kena tegur tu, kepala aku macam kena hempap dgn batu besar. dayngg! ohhmeegeee, Hani. What have you done?! Lebih kurang macam gitu lah. I was completely dumbstruck. Cuak weyh. Rasa macam nak bunuh semua rasa yg wujud. huu. Kalut weyh kalut. Tapi aku pendam rasa tu. Buat bodoh. Aku masih cuba kawan macam biasa. Sampai lah ada satu hari ni. Instant messenger. Topik pasal kawan baik, couple & kahwin. Aku taknak couple. Tu memang lepas insiden setahun lepas, aku terus tawar hati. ngeh. Jadinya, kononnya nak serah jodoh kat mama, kahwin lah dengan sesiapa pun yang ayah mama berkenan. haha. The after-effect of a heartbreak. pfft. oh. Masa tu, tengah cakap pasal kawan baik masing³. His and mine. Tiba³ dia cakap "Tapi friendship kita ni takbole terus macam ni lah lepas aku kahwin, sebab masa tu, bestfriend aku cuma isteri aku sorang je, kau, aku kena jatuhkan taraf jadi kawan biasa, tapi tak lah sampai putus kawan, ok?". Dan nak tahu apa reaksi aku? No, not the reaction I gave him through the instant messenger. I meant what goes inside my head that time. Masa aku baca apa dia taip tu, entah kenapa, secara automatiknya aku terus terfikir "No, mister. I'll remains your bestfriend. Forever. I'll be your bestfriend forever." Get it? No? Maksudnya, masa dia cakap tu, aku tiba³ nekad, aku akan kekal jadi bestie dia, sampai akhir hayat dia atau dalam bahasa mudahnya, aku akan jadi isteri dia. Get it now? haa. Tapi masa tu, aku masih pendam apa aku rasa. Aku pendam dan pendam. Dan teruskan pendam. Dan sekarang ayah mama dah tahu. Tunggu masa jela. Kalau ada jodoh aku dan dia, ada lah. Kalau takda, Allah ada perancangan yg lebih baik. Sekarang, masa nak lengkapkan diri sebelum aku boleh melengkapi dia. ewahh aku. Tapi betul apa. hoho.

Tapi itulah. Dalam banyak³ kawan baik lelaki aku, entah kenapa rasa itu terbit pada dia. Dan susah sebenarnya. Kena pendam semua rasa. Kena tunggu sampai semua sah dulu. Perit kot. I'm just human. gegege.
Dan aku memang saja tulis panjang³ dengan harapan dapat kurangkan skop pembaca. hikhik. Tapi kalau korang dh baca sampai sini, doakan lah sekali ye.
Dan aku tau ayah mama baca blog ni juga. So to ayah mama, _{gelak-gelak gedik} hoho.
Dan kepada kawan baik aku tu, kau pun baru tahu benda ni kan? Aku tak pernah cerita. Dan ouh, puas hati dah? Panjang entri untuk kau aku buat. wekk. Selalu sikit³ je kan pasal kau. Kali ni, satu entri penuh. Untung lahhh.

^{As much as I want myself to be his, I still knows my duties as a daughter and a medical student. As much as I want myself to be his, I still knows I have a lot to prepare.}

Wassalam 안녕

Dear B

السلام علايكم

Ingat tak gambar ni, B? Zaman kita tingkatan empat dulu. weee. Muda gila! huhu

As usual, on the 9^th September, since the first year I started blogging about 5 years ago _{tibatiba rasa dh tua. hukhuk}, I'll never miss this special entry.

Selamat hari lahir, B.
Its finally your 20^th birthday.
Hani doakan yg terbaik buat Tyra. In everything you do, may success follows. And Allah bless you always. Dan harapnya Tyra makin solehah & matang seiring peningkatan usia.

Hani sayangkan Tyra sangat³.

Tunggu Hani balik tahun depan tau, B!
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Zaza's

السلام علايكم
Its been a while, Zaheera. And I've miss you lots.
Late night talks _{though in your case its the early morning talks} when we confide in each other.
We talked and talked and talked about almost nothing in topic but somehow it means something to both of us.
Somehow, you made me smile, relieved me from this unknown burden. And I do hopes I did the same for you though I strongly believes I did nothing to ease your mind over things.
And though we've been so far apart, plus with I'm not coming home this summer,and you've been busy with all those grand events, it brings me joy to know that our friendship remains strong.
And its such a miracle how I would ended up spending my time with you _{and some other time, its Athirah} when Allah knows I'm in great need of a company. He always know. :)
Not complaining that Eliza, Auni, Lisya, Nadira, Muadz, Farid or the others arent here for me though. They do. Always do. They've been a bunch great friends. The ones that I'll treasure.

Gahh. I've been mushy again. Cett.
Mesti kau gelak guling³ kan baca, B? Kau kan rock hard.
Tapi. Gahh. I love you, B.
Do take care. Dont tire yourself out. Rest! And keep me updated once in a while. Dont let me assume the worst and end up worrying about nothing.

And ouh, sleep tight, love. muahhh

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